Imagine
the world, as you know it changing drastically
in a matter of a few hours. Perhaps
you are a victim of a natural disaster,
such as an earthquake or tornado. Maybe
your car or love one's is broadsided
by a drunk driver. Or, as in the case
of Donna J. Ferres, you are busy at
work, thinking about your plans for
the weekend, when suddenly; you are
fighting for your life.
In
the book Undying Will: A true Story
of How One Woman Survived a Brutal Rape
and Near Murder to Bring Her Attacker
to Justice, Ferres tells the horrifying
story of being kidnapped, raped, stabbed,
and left for dead, and how it dramatically
changed her and her view of the world.
After
a lengthy hospitalization and innumerable
surgeries to heal her body, Ferres has
to work on healing her mind. "My
first reaction was to want to reach
out and embrace her," she writes
of visiting a therapist who shared her
own experience of being raped. "Instead,
I shut down, folding my arms tightly
around my small torso, as if to protect
myself from hearing any more. My body
language spoke louder than any words.
My response angered me. This is who
I became, a person who could not offer
consolation to another."
When
people are exposed to life-threatening
trauma, trust and safety are abolished.
Confidence is lost. "Locked in
my bathroom leaving only to get something
to eat, I felt like a prisoner,"
Ferres writes, "I would look outside
my window, watching cars speed by and
people walking their dogs. When the
mailman would come to drop the mail
in the door slot, I would hide."
She
continues: "I couldn't watch TV
or listen to music because it made too
much noise. I needed to hear everything
that was going on. I would jump out
of my skin each time the phone would
ring. I would attempt to read the magazines
I had been given in the hospital only
to be interrupted by the sound of the
refrigerator kicking on or a car turning
around in the driveway. The smallest
sounds startled me into a panic attack."
After
working with a therapist for several
months, Ferres finally felt ready to
return to work. Of her first days back
on the job at the convenience store
where she was confronted by her rapist,
she writes: "I knew what everyone
was thinking. I could read their eyes.
They were wondering why in the hell
I came back. It bothered me, but I had
too much other stuff to deal with."
Indeed,
as Ferres begins to fall back into the
comforting rhythms of work, she receives
a summons for the trial of her attacker.
The weeks before the trial are filled
with fear, bringing up old feelings
of guilt that somehow it was her fault
she was attacked. She also learns that
victims have few rights at trials of
their attackers, something she finds
herself working to change in the years
after the trial.
The
book also includes several appendices,
including a section titled "Feeling
Safe," in which the author gives
practical tips on who my be a target
of violent crime and what can be done
to help prevent being a victim. The
section "Living With Trauma"
discusses the process of post-traumatic
stress disorder. There is also a list
of Web sites where victims of violent
crimes can obtain information and help.
Don't
miss this poignant tale of a young woman's
struggle to live life after the unspeakable
happens. Beautifully written and stunningly
honest, Ferres lets us walk through
a personal nightmare without leaving
us hopeless. This poignant tale will
forever and profoundly change your life.
Recovery
can vary for each individual. It mostly
depends on an understanding support
system, counseling, justice and validation.
Undying
Will is a must-read for victims of crime
and anyone who loves them.
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Dedication

This
book is dedicated to all the victims
who were not as fortunate as I, to have
survived a brutal attack.
To
the loved ones of the victims, I want
to share my thoughts during what could
have been the last moments of my life.
I hope this will provide insight and
solace for those who have lost someone
to a violent attack, fearing that the
end for their loved ones was painful
and terrifying.
My
thoughts in the last moments, as I lay
dying, were transformed from being scared
out of my mind, believing he might come
back, to a calm, peaceful state of acceptance
of my death. My body became weightless,
and my mind emptied, for I believed
I was going to a better place; I didn't
feel any pain. It was as if time stood
still as I closed my eyes to die. Then
the dog barked ... Read
this book to find out how a barking
dog saved my life.
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